Last day of school 09 :)

Was really not up for school actually bt zhiling told me bout her so called mission n sumhw i gt interested, well i could do with some company since im home alone while parents on a holiday. Went school and spent the whle day at the prefects room doing silly stuff and testing out the equipment for the prefects camp were having soon. Hai Shan thought me this very very childish game using cards and it was reli fun despite the stupidity of it. Thank God for the existence of ppl like hai shan , really has a way of making you u giggle till ur tummy hurts. lols. Settled all the stuff that needs to be settling like closing d prefects accounts *gahh* and bidding goodbyes to selected teachers.

After school a few of us went for lunch. Supposed to go to regal house wic is non-halal bt v changed our mind later la since amirul was there. But more importantly, we carried out our silly prank which we planned towards sensitive boy, amirul. Dont emo la bugger, shud b thankful v planned all this. The day before, zhi ling told him that were attending some save the trees campaign hosted by a vegetarian restaurant near d school. So participants would have to hug or kiss or do a favoured pose with any selected tree. She also told him to bring repellant incase the tree was infested wid insects. Due to participation, we would get a free lunch set at the vegetarian restaurant. But, due to the huge number of people expected to turn up, the shop would not have enough plates so participants are required to bring own cutleries and plants. No paper plates!! theyre made from trees...

The ironic thing about it is tht amirul actually fell for the whole thing. Instead of bringing plastic plates he brought glass ones, the huge white ones. Instead of bringing a repellant he brought a whole baygon spray! haha. Sum people certainly know how to go out of the extrodinary.

I still cant believe he cudnt find out....We were going to take pics at a tree nearby kepong market, just outside d mamak ksm. Why would anyone who intends to win a comp take pics in such a dirty n stinky alley. Lisa went first...i fooled amirul by pretending to take a pic...me n juin went next, lisa did the same..when it was amirul's turn, we actually took the picture...take a look at it. Strangers were actually looking and were wonderign what we maniacs were doin under a tree wid hardly any leaves at kepong market.

Well it certainly triggered amirul and he got emo although he said it was just shock..im not gona elaborate further on what he did :) Next, we actually went to the vege shop to eat, the food was expensive so v ordered everythin small and finished all our food to the last crumb. As for the chinese tea, lisa was forcing us to drink more and more glasses so that the cost wud b worth it..Should have seen the way we cleaned the plates...Sampai all d small onion leaves aso v ensured were eaten. It was only vegetables so we were still freaing hungry, decided to proceed to pak hailam for round 2.

Whn we arrived we spotted kanmani and kashini dating beside the romantic fountain in the porch. The didnt seem pleased upon our arrival....

Everyone: Hey!!!

Kanmani and kashini : Owh, hey =.=

Ordered stuffs like ice-cream, wedges, fried rice and shared it...as usual, we were tryna get our moneys full worth by finishing d chilli sauce and tissues. All sorts of silly and child-like jokes were brought up but i laughed my ass out anyways, glad there are some people who enjoy their childhood and take full pride over it unlike many others who so want to grow up. After that, we did a somewhat replika of the 4s tragedy by setting a fire...Amirul's baygon spray stated highly flammable so we sprayed it all unto a p paper and lighted it up, thanks to joshua for the lighter btw...Wow it was fascinating, cud feel the heat from the fire and it sounded like a jet or a rocket taking off. Then it rained and we were forced to go back and dismiss.

Overall, alota silly things happened and took place. Immature, foolish, cranky,stupid, pathetic, retarded and what u name it. Time goes by so damn fast, were already 16, but our child-like characteristics refuse to leave us as yet. A year more and we proceed into the real world with new challenges and hardships. Enjoy this precious time where you get to do anything you want, and get away with it....CHERISH CHILDHOOD PEOPLE!!

I gotta feeling, that tonights gona be a good night,
So i decided to do this,
Its very unlikely of me, maybe i accidentaly took viagra o smth,
Im telling you how i feel,
How things are, and what will they be,
Whatever the outcome, im reli glad i had the guts to tell you,
Cause i assume the john doe in ur blog was me,
And this is my reply,
Whatever happens after this, let it be the right thing,
I thank God for having known someone like you :)

You wish for things from me indirectly,
You wish for the flame to burn in our hearts again,
I try, try to let you know we share the same wishes,
But you run away,
How am I to tell you then.

Create that space in your heart for me,
So that I can fill it,
Open yourself up to me,
So that the pieces will fit and a new chapter begins.

Ever since,
Ive always considered you a dear buddy,
Nothing more, nothing less,
Ive managed to convince myself that things should be the way they are now
That it benefits us both, at least, i think it does,
Ive managed to overcome that pain that occurs everytime i set my eyes upon you
The fact that youre there and not mine.

Rihanna's Te Amo plays itself in my ears quite often,
Somehow it relates to me and how things currently are,
It hurts that I dont understand you,
You want me, then you dont,
You look at me and turn away,
Despite everythin, I find myself drawn to you, like a bloody magnet,
A permanent one which magnetic force doesnt seem to fade away,
Try to pull away but i cant,
Im like a piece of metal, i cant run away from you
But you get to choose whether or not to take me off you and go for other metals

When youre away, amazingly the force gets stronger
I feel myself drawn to you more,
Sometimes you dont really realise you would miss someone till theyre gone,
Till you have to endure sleepless nights
Prevent those tears flooding your eyes from flowing
I need you, or a stronger magnet to pull me off you.

Long time din write anythin edi so i wana start bak agn. Today ws Hari Guru. Most of my frens poteng cuz itz a waste of time. But me, it ws one of d most important days dis yr. V, f4 prefects have to arrange everythin, from d banner, o d performances, to d games, to d song dedications, every single minor detail v haf to do. Lots of us shed tears along d process, wad a difficult task. So many quarrels, seniors banning our ideas, v nt working together, lack of communication, not forgettin stupid mid year exams wic sucked out all d crap frm us. Yesterday, bfore d big day, i stayed in skool till 11.30 pm, sum of d prefects bermalam di sekolah. So much of work n things were not getting better.
That day ws also low chye huey's bday. She had tears as a bday toast. Being ketua banner n nth ws completed n chuay kai yan pulak fully emotional cuz her drama, nt even a full practice ws caried out. I, sit thr n watch this ppl cryin n emo-ing dreamily. I think bout hw much i screwd up in d process.....being bendahari. I failed to collect a suitable sum n all of us were so desperate 4 cash, i lost so much of money, i lost so many important receipts and documents, wad a useless piece of junk i am. But itz all within. i cant cry, i cant run, i cant scream, i cant sing, itz all just stuck in me with no way of coming out.
The day hadda come . I woke up feeling dizzy n sleepy, onli had two hours plus sleep. Put on my golden samfu( i bcame d mc) n rushed to skool. Saw fellow prefects hu looked like zombies hanging around. Dey had somewhat completed d banner. Things turned out to be ok after all. I did my mc thing quite well, d way i spoke full of life n excitement. Ppl asked me, is tht shaun tht super quiet guy hu freaks us out. Even d drama. For onli coming up wid something a few hours bfore, we did a splendid job. After tht permainan. I went for cooking comp n coordinated it. Got to eat all d leftovers. I got to taste malay, chinese n indian style of curry chicken. lols. Then, song dedications. Somehow worked la. So many funny msgs turned up. There was this guy called CHONG DICK BIN. lmao throughout.
Thats a very very short summary la. D teachers enjoyed it but not d seniors. Dey were so pissed at us. SnR Soong Heng took out his specs n wen he does means hes a flaring dragon waiting to pound u at anytime. IlL just wait till tommorow and c how it all works out.

Itz been months edi since ive posted anything. I do this when i really really have nothing else to do. Hate writing edi, duno y. Anyway, this post is bout a class choir singing choir for minggu bm wic took place laz week. I gt dam excited n started bugging lisa to have practices. But everything turned out not so good la. Btw las yr my class won our form n got 2nd place overall so many of us were looking forward to bcome champions this time around.
We managed to decide wad we were gona sing only 3 days bfore comp, stressed alota ppl out esp lilian d pianist(of cuz la, she has to learn a song wid no notes provided within 3days). But anyway all tht was overcome and my class actually is kinda good in singing, v managed to get the tune within a day.
D day bfore the comp, i decided to take matters into my own hands. Bcuz eventhough d music was there n ppl were able to sing, it was reli reli bland, no live, there were no parts too, and it made the song dull-itz my opinion only. So, I started echoing lines of d chorus....mainly to add spice to it and cheer ppl up. But it was d opposite la. The front row said they got confused when to come in and asked me to shut the **** up. Im damn sensitive n got reli hurt by tht. I din understand, dont all choirs have parts, we did it laz yr bt this time they din want it anymore. I mean seriously it ws bland, nt even a boys girls part. My class ppl can reli sing, v made d judges cry las yr bt i duno why they din wana show out their skills.
Later at home, heard stuff of me bein LC, thinkin im d greatest n stuff....was even more hurt n decided to confront d ppl involved. Things gt nasty, they brought up d past stuff n said 1 of d reasons v lost laz yr bcuz my voice broke( i had a solo part laz yr) and lots more la..do not wish to say it. Vowed not to come to school for d comp.
I duno wad was wrong wd me, d nex morning i 4gt completely bout d issue n went to skool. lols. Then OH SHIT, WHY AM I HERE. Anyway, i tried to get over my emoness n sang my heart out durin d comp, but stilllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllsum ppl said i ws keepin quiet d whole time. I even got a comment....ur voice SUCKS.

Thats d story, believe me itz d simplified 1...lols. I have to agree i did show off wid echoin and all...i ws jz tryna help bt ya it was berlagaking. And whn ppl said my voice sux it reli hurt. I noe im not d best singer in d world although i act that way sometimes but I know i dun suck. Ppl have to c when i show off itz bcuz i love music so so much. And maybe it was also a cry for attention cuz basically i feel like a stranger, a ghost in class......so maybe it wass all a cry to be noticed??????????????? Anyhow Im sorry........

Result Dayy......

Unlike oders hu cant sleep at night, i was knocked out, got up at 9 d next day. Went to skool at 10.15....tot alot alota ppl wudve taken edi bt wen reached none of my classmates were dere n all d tchers were feasting on some jamuan. Aftr half an hour oni saw my friends and d teachers all fleed away to d office. After a while all d tchers came down in a straight line and when and sat ant each table 4 each class. At that my my heart dropped....ws freakin scared, like when i went 4 d space shot at genting. For d past two months i ws so cool an confident. All my classmates (guys)including me were chickens, hiding from d class teacher. lol. The girls were alredi rushing over to d teacher...Luckily joshua took d courage to go first and reached bfore d girls and saved d guys maruah..lol. (u d man josh!)
The first few people were crying in joy...around 10 ppl in a row had straight As. When my turn ws reaching however d few people bfore me bowed in frustration and devastation...so i gt goosebumps...mayb they arranged the straight As first and now d time for all d ppl hu din get. MY TURN, my teacher en husen said i tak dapat straight....2B...wid a reli straight face...i believed him, was devastated and said ok tak apa....subjek apa tak dapat. Then he said APALA SHAUN, ENGLISH TAK DAPAT. Shocked, hw can any1 nt get an A for english in pmr level. Sumore my mom is an eng teacher hus doin her PhD!! Gona b slaughtered at home. My teacher handed me d slip. I took it bt decided not to c it.
Husen smiled and said tengoklah betul-betul.....with teary eyes, due to frustration, i turned to my slip.....STRAIGHT As!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It took me long to realise though i ws searchin for d B but i cudnt find it...evn looked bhind like a blurpot bfore realising there ws no b after all....WOHOOOO. Also dam glad cuz alota my classmates got straight As.

So now im off to form4, science stream...and anoder uphill challenge to face..SPM....HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!~